August 2010
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Pills...
So many pills. One to make me happy, one to make me less anxious, one to help me sleep, and one so I can drink a cup of milk for crying out loud. I feel lost in pills. I feel lost without them too though. I don’t want to go to work tonight and pretend that I am happy. I am tired of faking it.
July 2010
4 posts
Did you know?
“she prays for days when boys mean she’s protected, and she wants someone to see her, she needs to hear she’s beautiful, she’s beautiful…”
Did you know that you taught me that being in a relationship was happy? Did you know that you taught me that it wasn’t ok to be alone? Did you know that you taught me that appearance is everything? Or that showing...
Ugh! I just keep chanting it’s my friday…three days off…i can do this.
Am on lunch and lost in thought…”there’s a brighter bright, i’m waiting til you’re crazy enough to try, there’s a brighter bright”
Work is so eh tonight. Everyone seems on edge. Thank goodness for thriving ivory…”i feel it in my bones and i wear it on my skin.”
June 2010
10 posts
It’s amazing how a shower can change your whole outlook on the day. PS. I love being a girl and getting to use pretty smelling stuff
And here we are again...
It’s father’s day and I think of him. It’s fitting I guess. It would be a special day for him if he still lived. I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept. So consumed I am with these thoughts and regrets. Why did we continue to allow something in the past to keep us apart? He’s gone now and I never got to tell my father that I forgave him and that I was sorry. I am sorry....
Some people over evaluate their worth in my eyes. Being mean to you could cost me my job and you arent worth my job. Grow up.
So tired of all of the drama. What kills me is it’s one person almost single handedly making work this stressful. Want to go home.
So yeah...
I’m so furious righ now for probably no reason. Still, I should you something that meant something to me and you dismiss it. I don’t dismiss things that mean anything to you. It makes me not want to share things with you. what’s that? What kind of friendship is that? Ugh!!!!!
So ready to go home and crawl in bed. A little less than 2 hours to go.
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Well...
My LOA is over and it’s back to work tonight. I’m kind of looking forward to it. On Saturday nights they’ve been scheduling 3 cashiers instead of 2. Plus we have our CSS. Tonight is going to be even better because the other 2 cashiers are the 2 that I actually enjoy working with. Time to start earning some money again.
May 2010
57 posts
“Well she wants to live her life
Then she thinks about her life
Pulls her hair...”
– Train, Meet Virginia
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Yeah....
I wasn’t feeling well Yesterday so i went to bed early. I ended up sleeping like 12 hours. That’s odd enough for to start with. Then I woke up feeling weird and started remembering all these strange dreams. Hmmmm…
Because you know, that's how life goes...
It seems one problem is always closely followed by another. I found myself picking up the pieces of my mother again. Apparently tape and glue just don’t cut it where people are concerned. I guess she and husband # 5 are having problems. I know, so shocking. I feel like I’ve spent my life thus far divided. Half the time trying to take care of her and half the time trying to take care of...
Is so exhausted. Only 2 more hours and then 3 days off. Definately ready for them.
Came to work early to exchange some stuff which didnt take as long as planned. Still half asleep and wanting to go home.
Anonymous asked: Why do you call your roommates the children?
Just got finished vaccuming, mopping, and sweeping. Still have another load of dishes and the cat box to do but I’m beat. Will get to those in a bit. I miss the children (aka roommates). Apparently Balverine does too because he keeps meowing at their room door.
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Because every sunny day needs a deep in thought...
It’s amazing how the simplist things can bring a memory that was previously thought gone. One simple sound flowing through the window and I’m taken back to a time when I was lost in your eyes…wishing for forever. Forever never came but in the end I believe it was for the best. Still I wonder where you are and what are you doing? How your life has progressed without the us that...
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Wonders if realizing you’re crazy actually makes you more crazy or less…
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Random Survey...
Where were you last night? Work. What is today’s date? 5-12-10. Who was the last person to call you baby/babe? Shane… When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self checkout? Usually.
What is your relationship status? Single. Has anyone ever sang to you? Yes. HA! If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? I doubt it. Who do you text the most?: Memo, Joaquin
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